Spiritual Awakening Help

I have always been fascinated with this mysterious thing called life.

I’ve always wanted to understand – what does it all mean? What am I supposed to be doing here? And, as the type A personality that I am, how do I make the most of it? How do I do good, achieve and succeed?

Of course to do well at it, you have to know the rules. ‘What are the rules?’, I asked my parents, teachers, professors, employers. You can be sure that there was no shortage of answers, each delivered with varying degrees of conviction.

Good student of life that I am, I took in and applied all the advice offered. I pursued personal growth. Through life’s trials and tests I fell, learned how to reinvent myself, and how to get up. I became a successful adult, I achieved.

For years, though, I had secretly harboured a suspicion that I no longer knew who I was. My life had been overtaken by career progression - success in an area that didn’t align to my core values. Conventional wisdom is that if you’re really good at something, then that’s what you should be doing. So I couldn’t very well turn my back on it.

Things were no better in my personal life. I suffered from high-functioning depression and anxiety. My people-pleasing and peace-at-all-costs tendencies also meant I had no idea who I was any more, let alone what I wanted for myself from life. As a result, I had a hidden soup of simmering resentment towards the very people I loved.

All this came to a screeching halt when I suffered from burnout and experienced a psychotic episode soon thereafter. This was the moment. I was finished. Empty. This mental, physical and spiritual crisis kickstarted the most life-changing transformative period of my life.

It has been an arduous but exciting journey back to myself - to remembering who I am. It has been a journey of self-discovery, empowerment and authentic connection with my loved ones. I’ve discovered a Joy that is beyond present-life circumstances.

I’ve encountered soul family, ideas and tools that helped to pull me out from that dark abyss. I am no longer afraid of the dark! I have learned that the journey to Self is not a journey of individualism but individuation … reclaiming the rejected, forgotten pieces of ourselves so that we may make our unique contribution to the world. And in doing so, I am birthing my truest self into the world.

I have realised this is my true purpose. This is why I’m here - to help myself and others come to Wisdom, Love, Understanding and Realisation of Self.